My Testimony of Jesus

I said a "sinner's prayer" when I was maybe about 12, maybe a couple of years younger. But I know know that I wasn't really saved. I have always believed that Jesus is the Son of God and that He is real but He didn't have my heart until the age of 42.

My entire childhood I was bullied by pretty much the entire school population of around 500 kids. There were even a couple of teachers who ganged up on me. As I got older, into my pre-teens and my teens, my dad started becoming both verbally and physically abusive.

As an adult, I have always still been on the outside looking in, never really fitting in, always singled out, lonely, bitter, resentful, and hurt. I have been INCREDIBLY guilty of being prideful and self-righteous. And I was angry with God.

Near the end of 2019 I found Q. And I believed it. Boy did I believe it. I idolized Donald Trump and I really thought he was going to save the US and that the white hats would save the world.

When the riots were happening in 2020 and cities were being destroyed, I started realizing that there was no hope for this world. Through Q I had started occasionally praying and seeking Jesus. In the summer of 2021 I came to see that Q is a delusion and that this world is doomed, and I started to remember some of what I had read in the book of Revelation as a child. More so, I started remembering that while I was reading Revelation as a child something was telling me that it would come to pass in my lifetime.

So in August of 2021 I bought a bible and started to read it. Jesus' message of forgiveness really struck me hard, because I knew I had A LOT of people that I needed to forgive. So I spent several days sitting in my recliner with my eyes closed trying to let go of the unforgiveness in my heart.

On September 21, 2021 I was trying to let go of the last bits of unforgiveness I had in my heart, but I was having trouble with it. I said to myself "come on, Becky. Let it go!" A couple of minutes later I felt Jesus reach into my heart and pull out the last bits of unforgiveness, and at the same time I was baptized with the Holy Spirit.

I have never been the same.