February 19, 2023 Choose this day who you will serve! I choose Jesus!
I dedicated my life to the Lord only a few years ago, just in time for God to use me as a watchman in these last days. Most of my life I was lukewarm and living for the pleasures of this world all while calling myself a born again believer. The Lord woke me up with a dream and soon after I fell on my knees to fully surrender to him. He then was able to help me get back on track with the calling he placed on my life. I was healed by God from cancer when I was 16. That’s when I started to rely on him more everyday and appreciate all of the things in life that I took for granted. I also started to see his hand working in my life because I had a closer walk with Jesus. But soon after I slowly started putting other things that I wanted out of life first everyday and I lived for the pleasures of this world. The Lord is a jealous God and I was not fully surrendered to him or his will for my life. So God tried getting my attention in many other ways throughout the years. Seven years later I lost my dad in a motorcycle accident only a few miles from home. I was drawn back to the Lord for a time, but soon fell back into lukewarm living, pursuing my fleshly desires. Then losing my grandpa, who was my example of how to live by faith in Jesus, and not rely on money and possession that this world offers. But still, that wasn’t enough for me to give up this world. Soon after I lost my second daughter Hailey as a stillborn, and no one could give any answers as to why it happened. She went back to heaven even though she was a week away from her due date. I cried out to the Lord as this was the hardest thing I had ever gone through and my faith was truly tested again. I relied on the Lord to carry me through and he did. But even then, I still did not fully surrender everything to the one I claimed to trust and love. I had a swollen thyroid scare where one was so swollen that a I was told it most likely was cancer since I had radiation and chemotherapy treatments when I was 16. I knew God had healed me completely but I started to doubt. I cried out to the Lord because we were pregnant again and I wanted to be here for our child. The Lord showed me that I was healed completely by having the doctor do a biopsy and when she was given the tray with needles there were to her surprise seven of them. This was unusual she said but decided to use all. They of course came back benign. God woke me up yet again. Just as there are stiff necked and hard hearted people and nations in the Bible, I was exactly like that.
It wasn’t until I was given a dream from God who had shown me what is still coming with a nuclear Russian attack on this nation. I felt the heat from the most terrifying and realistic dream I have ever had before. God saved me with fire. It still took me a year or so to finally come to the end of myself and fully surrender everything to Jesus. I allowed me to be unemployed, and during that time of trying all I could to get a job, on my own, and in my own strength, the Lord directed me to his word. I found myself spending more and more time with him in my prayer closet. I actually made a place to meet him everyday in my home. Then, after months, and hundreds of applications to jobs I never heard back from, I fell on my knees before the Lord and cried out to him. I was done. I was done doing things on my own and in my own strength. I was done loving this world. I was done pursuing all the things I wanted that this world offered me. When I cried out to the Lord, and repented for loving and pursuing this world for most of my Christian life, I heard the Holy Spirit speak to me very clearly. He said one word, “FINALLY”! When I heard him say this the tears fell and would not stop for months. Every time I entered into or even looked toward the direction of my prayer closet area, I would weep. There were times I would enter into the presence of the Lord, the tears would come, and I wouldn’t even know why. When I asked the Lord why I was weeping so much, he started to reveal to me that this was his way of healing my heart. I had so much brokenness that I didn’t even realize I had. The Holy Spirit also revealed to me that I had unforgiveness deep within my heart towards bullies from my past. I was reminded of the many years of bullying that was done to me during most of my school years. I had to forgive all of them in order to find complete healing. Then the Holy Spirit reminded me of those who bullied me throughout every single job I have ever had since I was 16. I had to forgive all who had ever hurt me physically and emotionally throughout those years. Many of the jobs I had were great until they found out I was a Christian. That’s when someone at work would start to bully me. Usually it came up when I shared my faith in Jesus. From an early age I experienced a literal hatred from people just because of my faith. Being bullied at a job made going to work everyday something I dreaded. But even with this happening at work, I knew the Lord was with me. I knew he saw all that I was going through, and so I drew near to him in prayer whenever I could while at those jobs. He did many miracles for me when I sought his face during these times of being bullied.
It wasn’t until I fully surrendered to the Lord that I was called to be a watchman. When the holy spirit revealed this to me for the first time I had no idea what that even meant. I didn’t know what would be required of me when this calling was out on my heart. I wasn’t sure why he wanted to use me to warn in this world we live in today, but I was obedient to his call. When I enquired of the Lord what his will was for being a watchman, he showed me that I was to warn all who have ears to hear. So I stepped out in faith and started sharing everything the Holy Spirit gave me to share. I wasn’t sure how to even share the word of God, or words of warning. So I asked the Lord what I should do. He told me to start by simply sharing my testimony of how he healed me from cancer when I was 16. He wanted everyone to know that even if we have to go through trials and hardships like I did with radiation and chemotherapy treatments for about a year, he was right there by my side. In the end I had zero side effects from the hundred the doctors listed I would have. Even the guaranteed sterilization from a “mustard” type chemotherapy and other experimental chemotherapy drugs, God showed his great power. If we trust in him even when we don’t understand why we have to go through something, he will always be faithful and we will never be ashamed for trusting in him.
So, after I stepped out in faith, and started sharing my testimony, which the Holy Spirit directed me with the right words, I was then given words of warning from the Lord. He gave me the nuclear war dream for a reason. In the dream God had had shown me that many of those I know and love would ignore the warnings and today I understand why. the love of this world and pride of life is within the hearts of many who call themselves Christians. I pray everyday that they too can humble themselves with a repentant heart, and find healing just as I did. I pray for all to fully surrender to Jesus before it’s too late. I have been shown that many who call themselves Christians will end up in hell IF they don’t repent for loving this world. I warn with words I am given to share from the holy spirit, not to make friends, or to please man, but I do it to please God. I desire to hear, WELL DONE GOOD AND FAITHFUL SERVANT!
“Servants, be obedient to them that are your masters according to the flesh, with fear and trembling, in singleness of your heart, as unto Christ; not with eyeservice, as menpleasers; but as the servants of Christ, doing the will of God from the heart;” Ephesians 6:5-6 KJV
“Servants, obey in all things your masters according to the flesh; not with eyeservice, as menpleasers; but in singleness of heart, fearing God:” Colossians 3:22 KJV
Through these past few years I have been shown many scriptures, as the Lord directs me to read, and write down in my daily journals, as I give the Lord my time. I had never before given him my time and I never written in a journal in order to write down scripture or words of wisdom from the Lord. That was because I never gave him my time. When I did give him my time in the past, it would have been to read a version of God’s word that was not Holy Spirit filled. I would read only scriptures I wanted and not really be able to see how the word of God applied to my life. I didn’t allow his word to change my heart because my heart still loved this world and the things in it. But now as a watchman, I am shown the heart of the lukewarm Christian, since that is exactly what kind of heart I had most of my life before fully surrendering to the Lord Jesus Christ.
The Lord is using me to speak truth even when many will hate me for it. The light of Christ shines on the sins of the lukewarm and that is why they will attack the messenger. The Holy Spirit has revealed that there is a hatred in their heart towards the messenger and the words I am given from the Lord are rejected. Being a watchman is not for everyone. It is only for those who are ready to stand alone in their faith. It is only for those ready to be obedient to the Holy Spirit and not just sacrifice. Obedience is better than sacrifice. As a watchman I am able to stand alone just as I did most of my life as a loner at school. Also, i took a stand and told multiple doctors that my faith was in Jesus and he was the one that healed me and not their drugs. Even when the doctors were telling me I was guaranteed to have multiple side effects from the chemotherapy and radiation treatments, I knew the Lord was with me and would answer my prayers and the prayers of many who were praying for me.
As a watchman I must warn that this world is ending. Division and separation within the church started a long time ago, and we see that even to this very day. There is no spiritual discernment with what is going on in the world because many do not humble themselves before the Lord DAILY. To enter the throne room we must die. If we don’t die daily, then we can’t fully surrender or know the will of God. We won’t be able to know the truth. There is so much deception in this world right now, and it is only going to get worse the closer we get to hearing the trumpet sound.
There is no more time! Time is up! God is speaking clearly today that time is up. Those who have chosen this world will stay behind to face the mark of the beast. They will not have this church age of grace any longer where they can continue to be lukewarm. The lukewarm will then have to finally choose who they will serve. This is a warning message to some if they are reading this. Don’t let another day go by where you choose to continue pursuing this world and your heart still loves it. Choose to separate yourself from it now. Choose to forsake all and follow Jesus. Those who don’t forsake all are not worthy of him and will be left behind. Many will find themselves in the sudden destruction that is coming. They will also end up in hell without a repentant and humble heart. Please don’t live for the pleasures of this world anymore. Choose Jesus before it’s too late.
“For thus hath the Lord said unto me, Go, set a watchman, let him declare what he seeth.” Isaiah 21:6 KJV
“But if the watchman see the sword come, and blow not the trumpet, and the people be not warned; if the sword come, and take any person from among them, he is taken away in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at the watchman's hand.” Ezekiel 33:6 KJV
“Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.
Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God.” John 3:3, 5 KJV
-Justin Adkinson A Watchman until I am called home
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